On Pregnancy Two

Everyone says how different it is with the second. And yes, it is definitely different. I popped out really quickly and have been oh so easily putting on the pounds. I tried the gym but would come home utterly exhausted for the rest of the day. Even without the gym, I'm exhausted. I remember being pregnant with Keller and thinking "Oh my god, how do people do this when they already have a child" in reference to being so tired, and now I see how it is! What stinks for me right now is that somehow I feel as if I've been mislead into believing that the second trimester is "the honeymoon," "the easy one," "the trimester to get things done." Ummm, if that's the case then I got gypped! Let's see, trimester one: Nauseous, exhausted, and Sinus Infection for weeks! Second Trimester, starts out okay, but don't really have that "energy" that usually refers to this period. I seem to "make it through" my days, especially the babysitting ones...If Keller is in bed at 7:30, I literally make myself wait until 8:00 to get into bed. I read for awhile and then call it a night. (okay tonight is an exception--Trav is in bed sick and I'm taking advantage of that and catching up on these blog posts---gotta love the "scheduled post" option!) My patience is definitely worn thin much easier and I am capable of crying at the drop of a hat. So, yes, add to this hormonal overload the thought of moving and watch out! It's such a catch 22...We could be fine here for another year (and even in putting the house on the market, we could still be here in a year) or we could sell right away and end up in a temporary situation for when the baby comes...all overwhelming, but lucky for me, I have a sister who managed to survive temporary rentals and moving to new houses (twice) with her two babies and a sister-in-law who has her 10 month old still sleeping in her and her husband's room--and so I know that whatever ends up happening, we'll make do just fine.

And on the pleasant notes of the pregnancy:) This little bugger is a mover for sure! He/She seems very active, throughout the day and especially when I get into bed, which is when Keller was most active. And I LOVE feeling that little baby move inside of me, it's just the most amazing thing and it's also far more necessary to feel those movements the second time around because with the first, you tend to eat, sleep, and drink baby thoughts, books, websites, etc. The second time, at least for me, we're busy here, changing diapers, eating, playing with toys, taking naps, reading books, being silly, soaking up every little thing the big brother does. That little baby on the inside has to kick and punch to say, "Hey, don't forget about me! Eat healthy! Drink water! Take your vitamins! Exercise! I want to be a healthy happy baby too!! Kick! Punch!" And so begins the life of the second child:)

I am a little torn for now at figuring out how best to prepare Keller for his transition. While he's a pretty go with the flow kind of kid in social situations, can be left easily with grandparents or friends, at home with just Mommy he's a bit of a Mama's Boy (which I mostly love, but to a degree) and I'm currently able to pick him up/ carry him around when he wants me to but when I'm not able to pick him up or if I put him down and he doesn't want to go down, we get a bit of a fit out of him. So my torn-ness is feeling like he's my baby boy and his whole world is going to change in a few months so do I give him all the attention now since I can? Or do I start backing off a little more to help prepare him? (My behavior analyst husband knows exactly what I should do, but that's a professional opinion, not a motherly instinct, and so I guess there it is...follow my instincts, I'll find the right balance, and no matter what I do, we will all have to figure out how our roles change when the new little one comes along).

Still no definite plans on the delivery thing. Thinking that if we go into labor early then we'll try the old-fashioned way but if we get beyond the due date, then C-Section it will be... A little early would be good, although I must confess that the idea of a natural childbirth is daunting to me after recalling my experience with Keller and knowing that I didn't even experience the whole thing...It's nice to be so distracted with everything else in life though to not dwell upon that part of things! It will all work out the way it was meant to.